When Will Solitary End?
I sit in solitary confinement,
Monitored and evaluated,
Tortured in more ways than I care
To remember or burden you with,
With hopes I’d crack and beg,
Beg to be let out of this torturous place
And crack, losing the bit of sanity I have left
Like so many others before me and so many others
Yet to fall, fall prey to the prison’s administrators,
To the countless tactical torturous games they play.
I am but one of a few hundred who still stand strong,
Fighting to survive, accumulating deep embedded scars
With each passing day, learning to be resilient to all
That’s thrown and piled up against me
In such a difficult, miserable place.
Lonely and deprived of so much, I sit here
Beyond desperate for a helping hand, for something,
Someone, for a movement, for human rights lawyers
And all the advocates out there to put an end
To this heinous practice of solitary confinement
And take me away from this place with my dignity intact.
I hope it’s soon, before many more fall prey
And lose themselves in this dungeon of hell and misery
That’s been in place for far too long.
My actions will soon come
Hoping that they’ll draw the attention needed
To end this heinous practice
Once and for all.
The practice of solitary confinement.
The day quickly approaches when I’ll refuse to eat,
When my body and mind will be tested
And sacrificed for the greater good,
For this peaceful protest, this hunger strike
That’s my only form of seeking relief,
My last outcry for help
To come together and end these death dungeons.
What will it take to realize that time is essential
To one’s sanity within these circumstances,
To one’s self-respect and humanity?
What will it take to end solitary confinement?
Is 33 suicides in these dungeons last year alone enough?
Enough, for you, my captors?
Or shall I succumb in this hunger strike as well,
Before you realize something is amiss here?
What will it take?
Please, tell me, tell us, what?
Carlos Marvin Argueta Jr.
May 5th, 1985
Born and raised in Los Angeles
Parents: Immigrants from El Salvador escaping civil war in 1983-4
Siblings: 2 younger brother and sister. Brother also in prison (mainline)
Arrested for this crime in March 2004
Convicted in 2007 Feb. and sentenced to death & life without parole
Arrived on San Quentin Death Row Adjustment Center Feb 28th 2007
Been housed here in the A/C for 6 years minus 83 days. I was in East Block
Never been to Juvenile Hall or Youth Authority nor placement
First time in prison
Never been labeled as a street gang member
Arrived at S.Q. with probation report stating I was a tagger
Haven’t received my H.S. diploma nor G.E.D. despite my desire to. My housing prevents it.
Self-taught Writer, poet, artist
Loves to read
Tired of being treated less than human